The further one goes ..
There's been this thought that's troubling me for a long time now. Little did I know that Master Lao had a view on my strife.
The thought simply centres around the question of how much or, more precisely what sort of, knowledge one accumulates, the farther one travels?
Is it a case of gathering more knowledge and understanding the more you travel? the more people that cross your paths during your travels, long distance, overseas travel? does one really get satisfaction and knowledge by travelling further afield? by venturing far and wide? or is there a different angle on what seems like a triviality?
This morning's been nothing special so far. A bit heavier than usual, in fact. It's raining, and the weather has been miserable in Minsk all night last night and this morning too. Nothing too unusual about pulling a book, reading a little, being frustrated with it, and tossing it aside.
Too lazy to make tea or grab a bite to eat. I keep thinking of all the things I have to do, this thought that has been with me months now, and, goes without saying, of her, every second.
And I ask myself, again and again, travelled the world over (almost) several times. Seen some amazing people, customs, ways of trade, traditions ...etc. Have I really expanded my knowledge base? am I any more knowledgeable or, Heaven forbid, any wiser?!
Then I see a possible answer in one of master Lao's teachings, and it kind of makes sense, though I don't wholeheartedly agree with it: "The further one goes, the less one knows". In a way, he is right, and who am I to question the pillar and post of Taoism?. But in many ways, he himself teaches that knowledge is within, and fawning is what knowledge does. An endless cycle of accumulated, re-cycled knowledge - the cycle of Zen.
True, the further one travels, the less one knows. Though is this not the very basis of seeking knowledge, and therefore acquiring new knowledge by venturing into spaces that one hardly knows?
In a very small and very silly and very twisted way, I see his teaching in you my one. The further I travel into this seemingly simple case of outrageous love, the more I am lost and can't find a way back.
Once, I was told that someone who loves you doesn't seek you in their time of idleness, but in times when they are so preoccupied with work, the daily life, their strife ...etc. The rationale is that this goes to show that you actually occupy a space within their life and daily routine that is so important, that they actually go and seek you prima facie and by default, no matter how busy or preoccupied they are, without needing to find place in time and space to dot it because you are in that time and place any way.
I know you do in my time, space, life and very fabric of my being, that I actually take the time to seek you irrespective of where we both maybe, how much struggle and sadness I carry around, whether or not you will respond, or the kind of load I carry on my shoulders in this crazy life.
And that, my one, is why I will forever be confused as to what it is you feel towards us both.
the less one knows ..
QED.
There's been this thought that's troubling me for a long time now. Little did I know that Master Lao had a view on my strife.
The thought simply centres around the question of how much or, more precisely what sort of, knowledge one accumulates, the farther one travels?
Is it a case of gathering more knowledge and understanding the more you travel? the more people that cross your paths during your travels, long distance, overseas travel? does one really get satisfaction and knowledge by travelling further afield? by venturing far and wide? or is there a different angle on what seems like a triviality?
This morning's been nothing special so far. A bit heavier than usual, in fact. It's raining, and the weather has been miserable in Minsk all night last night and this morning too. Nothing too unusual about pulling a book, reading a little, being frustrated with it, and tossing it aside.
Too lazy to make tea or grab a bite to eat. I keep thinking of all the things I have to do, this thought that has been with me months now, and, goes without saying, of her, every second.
And I ask myself, again and again, travelled the world over (almost) several times. Seen some amazing people, customs, ways of trade, traditions ...etc. Have I really expanded my knowledge base? am I any more knowledgeable or, Heaven forbid, any wiser?!
Then I see a possible answer in one of master Lao's teachings, and it kind of makes sense, though I don't wholeheartedly agree with it: "The further one goes, the less one knows". In a way, he is right, and who am I to question the pillar and post of Taoism?. But in many ways, he himself teaches that knowledge is within, and fawning is what knowledge does. An endless cycle of accumulated, re-cycled knowledge - the cycle of Zen.
True, the further one travels, the less one knows. Though is this not the very basis of seeking knowledge, and therefore acquiring new knowledge by venturing into spaces that one hardly knows?
In a very small and very silly and very twisted way, I see his teaching in you my one. The further I travel into this seemingly simple case of outrageous love, the more I am lost and can't find a way back.
Once, I was told that someone who loves you doesn't seek you in their time of idleness, but in times when they are so preoccupied with work, the daily life, their strife ...etc. The rationale is that this goes to show that you actually occupy a space within their life and daily routine that is so important, that they actually go and seek you prima facie and by default, no matter how busy or preoccupied they are, without needing to find place in time and space to dot it because you are in that time and place any way.
I know you do in my time, space, life and very fabric of my being, that I actually take the time to seek you irrespective of where we both maybe, how much struggle and sadness I carry around, whether or not you will respond, or the kind of load I carry on my shoulders in this crazy life.
And that, my one, is why I will forever be confused as to what it is you feel towards us both.
the less one knows ..
QED.
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